I need a distraction. Nothing works
I should be sleeping now. I should be a lot of things right now. I should be happy. I should be living thousands of miles away. I should be content with my life and striving to achieve more. I shouldn’t be miserable. I shouldn’t be heartbroken. I shouldn’t be stuck in this dump drowning in self pity. I shouldnt be stuck with no career. I’m fucking tired of this. I’m tired of being stomped into the ground mentally, emotionally and feeling the physical effects.
I don’t deserve this.
I hate so much that’s going on right now. As if it wasn’t bad enough being miserable & alone, I’ve got so much going on in my head I can’t settle for 5 mins. Nothing ever makes sense